That's my life....
it's a quarter past 6 in the evening, and mum's forcing me to sleep. all thanks to stupid gastric!! It's killing me!! Yea actually, i hope it kills me. As usual, went for organ lesson. Gastric was pretty fine though i did not eat the whole day. and i hate to go for lesson when i did not practice anything! That's like... going there to practice. And you see everyone knows how to play the song, but not you. that suck. headed off to meet Mum after organ. She brought me to the doctor. The cool thing is... she knows the doctor!! Yea, so while waiting for my turn, we went to grab something to eat. And after i had it. TA-DA!! here comes Mr gastric pain. Now you know the reason why i hate to eat and hate not to. Reason being, when i eat, i get the pain. When i dont, i MAY get it too. And once again, here comes ANOTHER kind of medicine!! I'm starting to HATE medicines! You just wouldnt wanna know HOW MANY KINDS of medicine i actually took, for this gastric! Argh! Doctor's SUSPECTING ulcers in my stomach if not, would be just under too much stress and for another 2 weeks, if the medicine he gave did not work out...... sherlyn will be off to see some specialist. And Mum says they'll make me swallow this LONG tube and they will see what's in my stomach with it. but the thing that matters is..... it's gonna hurt!!!! NOoOoo... No-no to stomach ulcers! Furthermore, 2 weeks later would be like.. a week more to O'levels! i cant afford to have any pain! And again, was suppose to go out to Chinese Garden tonight. But i cant go, thanks to my gastric!! it's always the gastric! and yes, it made me cry to bed just last night. by the way, chat up with elijah in the early afternoon. its surprising how we both actually put up this "front". We sort of looked FINE to each other but after today, we both know deep down we aint fine at all. duh! but then again, with all the girls he have been talking to...... dont he just love his life?? okay i'm just jealous, fuck that. Anyway it's so silly to know that we both are actually living in a lie. then again, something which made me really wonder, why aint he doing fine when he's the one who chose this life? then again, so what he aint fine, cos he already moved on. he said nothing but i kinda felt assured that he'll never come back. i'm tired of this life, really.. and the reason why i could survive through is because i just past through them. and soon, i'll be officially 17. Thinking about how excited i was, counting down to my birthday in the past years... why aint i excited this year? i'm not even looking forward to this celebration. i dont want a birthday wish cos they DONT come true. and i dont wanna grow up, i wanna stick to mummy. hah! i'm such a baby girl! [but... that's all i wanna be] =)
With love, on Saturday, October 07, 2006
xxx This scene is DEAD xxx
xxx This scene is DEAD xxx
